*di@ne10*

 I asked God to take away my habit. 
 
God said, No.

It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up. 
  

I asked God to make the handicapped child whole. 
 
God said, No.

His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary 

 
I asked God to grant me patience.. 

God said, No.

Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn’t granted, it is learned. 
 
 
I asked God to give me happiness.

God said, No.

I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you. 


 
I asked God to spare me pain. 
 
God said, No.

Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.
 

I asked God to make my spirit grow.

God said, No.

You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful. 
 
 

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.

God said, No.

I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.

God works in many ways that we all could not see, hear or feel…

He works in silent mode…

He nevers dissapointment me, even if i think he did but actually it was for the Best..

Everytime we suffer thats the time when we learn the most..

I thank God for being with me ups and downs as my one and only great saviour..

>_< v

Tonight something happened that made me feel scared and shocked..Ive never seen it before, it happened just in front of me, someone i know got a seizure due to epilepsy which is also known as brain disorder.. He always seem normal and i knew he had epilepsy but i didnt know it could be that serious.. Everyone were shocked.. After 10minutes NHS ambulance came and he was getting better,and had to go to the hospital to do more check up due to heart beating faster than the normal heart does..

As i was walking back home,i kept on thinking.. Life is too short.. one minute you could be happy and smilling- healthy, the next second you could be in a crisis, chaotic health.. its sad but true.. we will not know what will happen tomorrow, today, later or even now!!!

I want to live my life as meaningful as i could… so should you! so should everybody! I want to walk the journey with full of adventures.. I dont regret on where and what i am doing now, im happy because i have achieved my dream.. well atleast one of it >_< that is to travel with my own money..

I dont care what people say, because its just envy..I am a graduate Engineer but i dont work as one.. But it doesnt stop me from having, fulfilling and achieving things and dreams of mine… you dont have to become what you studied but you can always apply the things you study in various ways…

Always think positive, be happy..cause its not the end of the world until God says it is…Life only comes once, celebrate it everyday because we dont know when will it end..

On the 24th June 2008 i celebrated my 24th birthday!!! Yup im 24 years old, im happy and proud to say my age because i have achieved so many things in 24years.. >_< v

I celebrated my birthday at a casino in Sheffield UK with my housemates, friends and bf. Ive got a yam birthday cake, free drinks on the house-casino and a gift from the manager-a silver sterling necklace! i did gamble, oh well i played the machine and won!!! hahaha 1.70pound… hehehehe, its always better than losing..cant be too greedy in gamble..its goodluck!

ive got a windchime from Adeline and Jason, i love it!! Thank you.. it has a small butterfly-for me a butterfly resemble me, i want to fly high to see the beautiful places and still stay as colourful and pretty like the butterfly..

Patrick baby brought me out for lunch at a spanish restaurant to eat Tapas - he knows i love Spain!! Then we went shopping-my bday gifts from him, a Versace women perfume, Ralph Lauren sunglass, a coat, shoes, bag, belt, teddy bear, bday card and jeans! What can a girl ask for on her birthday!! Hahahaha…

I had a great birthday this year, its my second time to celebrate in UK.. Hopefully there will be a third one..hehehe.. anyways its a good way to remember my journey here with my friends…

Thank you everyone for the wishes…

hugs and kisses

di@ne10

Finally the blog is functioning! As you can see at my latest photo album, i had a trip to manchester stadium and blackpool with my lovely housemate and friends. For the record, i didnt want to enter Manchester stadium but i had no choice due to everyone went in so it wouldnt be fun staying outside alone! Eventhou i am Liverpool fan,it does not mean i could not or have no rights to enter the stadium.  It cost me 10pound perentry for the museum and stadium tour. In the museum you can see all the trophies that the club had won, jerseys worn by famous football player with their signature. During the tour i was proud to put my hands up when the tourguide ask "is there any LIVERPOOL fan???" Yup im digging my own hole as MU and Liverpool fan dont really match but who cares, i paid to enter so no one can kick me out. I became the joke of the day but it was fun, light up MU fans, it wont be fun without joke. Then the most exciting part about the tour was the changing room! hahahahaha, i know where Ronaldo is sitting, lalalalalalal lalalalala lalalalala.. for millionaires like them, the changing room doesnt look like a millionaire changing room..but i guess they stay there for only one or two hours so they dont care..but i can tell you that the bathroom, with tubs..big tubs…i think its a spa! I know where victoria and beckham met! Not a fancy place but i understud why they could meet up as the place were as small as my living room at my kuching house!( nah my living room looks bigger) hehehehe..im happy i went in, no regrets..ive gt a certificate too!! cool huh..

Then our next stop was Blackpool- entertainment place! I love it! Played the rollercoster, 8pound for 2min ride! and its really big! you can imagine how fast it go and yes i shout till i cant shout anymore! hahahahahahaha…scared that i will choke myself! The weather was superb, as windy as in Spain..At night we went to a drag show! it cost us only 3pound perentry! damn cheap and its worth the money..Do not look down at them, they have beautiful legs,their catwalks are better than the gals in americas top models! with high heels! They dance and shake their bums…hahahaha…they even perform for prince charles..so its really worth to see..

I like blackpool so i think people should go there and see for themselves..chao..

*di@ne10*

Ive been on a holiday for a week in France and i had a superb time. I went with Patrick my most lovable boyfriend, we needed a rest from our daily life in UK- working and Uk WEIRD weather. So Patrick decided to bring me for a holiday to his beautiful,posh, elegant country France!

We went to Pau, St Jean de Luz and Biarritz in France and St Sebastian in Spain. It was beautiful the beaches the weather the streets.. I love it!!! Cant really describe it by words but my pictures will tell it all…check out my photo albums..

Marcie buku Patrick, it was the best treat…hehehehe…JE TA’IME…

Muaks

Dear mama and sister Tania

Would like to wish you both Happy Mothers Day!!!I know that their gona read my blog so i decided to write one just for them.

Im not sure if i could call back to wish both of you but i would like to announce it here that to me both of you are the greatest mummy i have known! One is my mum, mama who has inspired me so much to always stay strong and to believe in myself that i could do anything ,plus her everlasting love to her children - tania, me and aaron. i could not have been where i am without her encouragement, support, and love. Thank you mama your the BEST MUM!!!

Next my sister Tania who had just became a mum 2 years. Happy mummy day!! Giving birth to my princess niece was the greatest gift to everyone. She just lighten everybodys life especially mine! You’ll be a great mum since we already have an example from our own mum.. Always stay strong for your Niny..

I think being a mum and to raise kids to teenagers to adults are not easy. Lots of characters must be built, teaching everyone of them to be discipline, independent and guiding them to a succesful future. Having to carry them 9months in the stomach and to give birth is something not everyone can do. so i salute every  single mothers out there for having one of the greatest occupation which is being a mum - of course i only dedicate it to the responsible mothers!

I would like to dedicate the song MAMA from BOYSIIMEN to all the mothers especially my mama, sister, simbuk, and aunties.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!!

Love* di@ne10*

Winter is finally over, and here comes SPRING!!!

No more shivering, wrinkle skins, crack lips… yahoo!!! The weather is so nice now sunny day with winds. its like being in an airconditioner room 24 hrs.. flowers will start to bloom, no more gloomy atmosphere..

oh well, atleast i felt snow already. hehehehe…

Nothing much to say just that ‘IM SO GLAD THAT WINTER IS OVER!!!!’

Yup, you read it right!

Who the hell am i talking about? The mat rempits with their hillarious and noisy motorcycles- too fast too furious konon! i THINK ITS TOO LAWAK AND BISING! If your hobby is to ride then ride safely dont have to involve innocent people! If its a danger to other people what good does it bring? PLus to become mat rempits and rob people, hitting people with helmets and spanar, WHAT THE F**K!! Dont you people have brains and emotional??? Be someone who is useful, if your talent is ONLY TO RIDE then be a professional motorcycle racer! IDIOTS, everybody is poor in this world but we with BRAINS do it legally such as work for money!!! earn what is meant to be earn , NOT BY earning other peoples savings!! Some people work so hard to have a saving and these animals-BAST*RDS just choose easy way which is to rob them! snatch thieves are common too, and what are you POLICES gona do about it? What xill the governmant do about it? catch them and sentence to prison for few months? YOU MUST BE KIDDING ME!! If im the judge!! they will never learn their lessons they have hurt so many innocent people that some even died because of them ( they them is not a proper word to even call such people! it should be animals! ) oh yea even animals know how to respect people! devils sound PERFECT! So whats the best hukuman??? cut off the devils hands!! brave to do it so brave to face the consequences!!

Why am i so pissed off about these people? Because they have hurt my love ones! And i tell you this those 20 over devils will be cursed by so many people that now they are laughing with what they have but soon they’ll suffer and in pain for the rest of their lives! even i have experienced snatch thieves before but i was lucky that he didnt manage to get anything from me, just he left me a scar on my elbow!

You can be a drug addicts, beggar, not working, who cares as long as you dont harm anybody else! you want to be whatever you want to be go ahead, but if it has to do with hurting or harm other innocent people! GET A LIFE!! Like i said, everybody is poor, even the rich, they are rich because they make the effort to be earn and be where they are now!! Nothing is free in this world, open your eyes!! and for once use your BRAIN!!

People out there just be aware where ever you go, see weird ugly faces people ( even if they are goodlooking but beauty without brains are consider as UGLY ) on a motorcyle go somewhere where it is crowded or lock your car doors.. take precautions and never take things for granted.. call the police which will take probably 30 minutes or an hour to arrive but who cares, its their job to come and have rondas!! we pay tax to have a safe country, so do your job! if you are afraid that the bad people will hurt your family then dont be a police! READ THE QUALIFICATION AND JOB DESCRIPTION OF A POLICE before you become one! Kick some bad arses!

Everbody can make a difference in this world.. you and i can make it a better world if we just co operate with one another..Live life to the fullest and meaningful.. Believe in what you believe and yet RESPECT the older ones! Everyone has a religion yours is yours mine is mine, u dont force others to go in your religion.. and you dont manipulate others.. everybody go your own way thats it, AS LONG AS YOU DONT HARM THE INNOCENTS!!

Im fade up with all the issues…

in conclusion from me is USE YOUR BRAIN!!

Sincerely

diane

What is the GREATEST PAIN ???

Most people might say its LOVE! Yes it is the greatest feeling in life but its NOT the greatest pain! I understand it hurts a lot but when you’ve gone through it, its just a challenge in life which everyone goes through. Take it or leave it; simple and clear… It doesnt hurt unless YOUR mind plays around thinking rubbish..

And yet, what is the GREATEST PAIN?

To be dissapointed with the results of your examinations. Hmmmm, ill say that this is more to dissapointment and sad but its NOT PAIN! You dont do well in examination doesnt mean you wont be a successful person, because it all starts from your Personality.

So, what is the GREATEST PAIN????

My story is everyday i wakes up at 5am latest 7am and goes to bed at 10pm latest 12midnight for a week now. and in between the time i will wake up to go to the loo SEVERAL times!!! Yes, I have been in pain for a week and it is the greatest pain for me because i could not walk properly, cant eat properly, cant laugh properly,cant everyting properly! People around doesnt know how it feels because they dont feel the pain, and no matter what you do and say it doesnt take the pain away.

A broken heart can be mould - JUST FIND A NEW BF!!!!

A dissapointment heart can be restored - JUST DO BETTER THE SECOND TIME!!!!

A SICK PERSON LIKE ME - JUST GO SEE THE DOCTOR!!!!

*What doctor-GP???? which in UK you have to register and it takes 48 hours for it to process your details!!! Then, you can call up to make an APPOINTMENT which might take another 48hours!!!! If you are really sick you can die to wait for you turn!

Tell me, im sick and a tablet from a pharmacy doesnt help!!! I need my damn prescription!!!

I can see all the good side of Malaysia already, walk in Clinics!!! 24 hours treatment eventhou sometimes its really slow work but who cares atleast its direct treatment…

You must be wondering, what sickness do i have… I wish i knew but i myself dont know and to me it is the GREATEST PAIN!!! Being sick, you cant stand even a day to feel sick and in pain, and i had to suffer DAMN 7days..I dont know for how long i can stand it, if you are ever in my shoes I WISH YOU LUCK- you’ll need it! (NOT CURSING ANYONE)

Its 4am and i could not sleep because of this ridiculous annonymous pain!!!!

Put me on your prayers list and hopefully i will get better and well asap!

Thanks

Cheers

*di@ne 10*

Happy Valentine day 2008…

My valentine, eventhou its a far distance relationship i received a txt from my charming prince early in the morning wishing me HAPPY VALENTINE and telling how much he is deeply in LOVE with me!!! How sweet!!!! I could not ask for more than that…I appreciate it with all my heart,eventhou i could not celebrate my first Valentine with him… But when i ever manage to step my foot at UK again, it will be Valentine day everyday with him..CANT WAIT!!! Keeping finger cross…

Well atleast we know that eventhou its a far distance relationship, it does not mean its not gona work out.. Mine its blooming every single day, everytime we misses each other.. Love is so great when two parties feel the same, have the iniative, loyal and patient… Far distance is just invisible..

LOVE, Thats what makes me miss him, thats what makes me pray his journey will pass safely when he is somewhere far away.

DREAMS, Will keep me happy when he cant be at my side. Dreams will keep him near me everyday and everynight.

TEARS, Will show im happy when he is knocking at my door.

KISSES, Thats what tells me that he LOVES me more….

HAPPY VALENTINE MY BABY SWEETHEART ~ you know who you are..

I LOVE YOU, thank you for being there for me…

Hugs and kisses

Always

Diane Then